Posts Tagged ‘sobriety’
Friday, July 17th, 2009
I’ve never known a musician who regretted being one. Whatever deceptions life may have in store for you, music itself is not going to let you down.
- Virgil Thompson
Elevator Pitch for Delicate Melody
Tags: belonging, bible, brainwash, creating music, editorial, elevator pitch, Experience, Hope, insanity, journalism, memories, Music, music in recovery, Orchestra, recovery, sane, sanity, sober, sobriety, strength, stringss, symphony, virgil thompson
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Sunday, May 24th, 2009
A week ago today, I celebrated a year of sobriety for the second time around. Friday, I had a slip-up of old behaviours. Today, I thought about how this year has been different my last year of sobriety. On Saturday, after I really thought hard about what I had done and how many people it [...]
Look Forward with Hope
Tags: AA, change, crying, emotions, feelings, fourth step, guilt, honest, honesty, old behaviors, regret, remorse, rensentment, shame, sobriety, suggestions, tears, trauma report, willing, willingness
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Wednesday, May 20th, 2009
Today I’m so grateful that I don’t EVER have to be that person that I used to be, and I believe that is the greatest miracle God or recovery could have ever given me. I’ve been through a lot, and today I consider myself a survivor.
What It’s Like Now
Tags: addiction, alcohol, apg, assault, christ, crack, crack/cocaine, cutting, dad, delusion, denton, domestic violence, drinking, drug, drugs, dry drunk, ecstasy, ER, freedom, God, guilt, heal, hitch hiking, JDC, learn, marijuana, meth, oblivion, rape, recover, recovery, rehab, rehabilitation, self-harm, self-injury, self-mutilation, shame, sober, sobriety, spiritual experience, story, suicide, survival AA, surviving, talk, white-knuckling, youth aa
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Thursday, April 23rd, 2009
If I sat in a group of women in sobriety and point blank said, “I smoked crack, I sold my body for it, and now I’m living with the consequences,” they’d all probably relate. THAT right there, is the beauty of alcoholics anonymous as well as narcotics anonymous.
Forgiveness pt. II
Tags: AA, aa meeting, addict, addiction, afraid, alcoholic, anger, angry, anorexia, aphorism, bulimia, crack, crack/cocaine, cutting, defense mechanism, drinking, drugging, eating disorders, fear, feelings, forgive, gaining weight, gang, gang banging, gangs, guilt, isolate, isolation, pity pot, problem, prostitute, rape, remorse, resentment, resentments, self-centeredness, self-harm, self-injury, self-pity, selfish, selfishness, shame, sobriety, solution, streets, strength, support, surgery, survivor, think, woman, women
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Monday, April 20th, 2009
It’s nice to be free and to grow and make my own decisions, which is definitely not something I was able to do a year ago.
A Healthy Balance of School and Work
Tags: AA, act, acts, alcoholics anonymous, blessings, car, college, college now, contrabass, double bass, eleven months, God, interview, job, kontrabass, north texas state university, psat, psats, rice university, sat, sats, school, sobriety, sobriety mileston, string bass, sweepstakes, TAKS, teaching, UIL, university of texas, Work, world music
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Thursday, April 16th, 2009
I want to teach music again. When I started high school, I was still in contact with my middle school orchestera director, and I’d have her refer incoming students to me for private lessons. I had about two or three clients I worked with once a week each and it was amazing.
No Time To Write? Pah!
Tags: alcohol, contrabass, distance learning, double bass, drugs, first chair, friends, house arrest, job hunting, kontrabass, middle school, mom, music teacher, music tutor, of mice and men, ohio, Orchestra, orchestra conductor, orchestra director, pre-UIL, private lessons, regionals, regions, relationship, relationships, school, sight reading, sobriety, string bass, TAKS, TAKS testing, UIL, UIL contest
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Tuesday, March 31st, 2009
I spent a lot of the day reminiscing about all the things he and I have been through. I remember the night he called me around 2 or 3 am, telling me he had just told his mom he was addicted to meth He was crying and I still remember his exact words, “Victoria, I need you.”
Friends, Old and New Pt. II
Tags: AA, addiction, aphorism, camera, change, courage, different, drugs, ESH, Experience, friend, friends, friendship, help, Hope, knowledge, lead the horse to water, meth, meth addictino, Music, new friends, old friends, people, recovery, relapse, relapsed, relationships, risks, sobriety, strength
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Monday, March 23rd, 2009
Lately, I haven’t really had much inspiring to blog about, but I know I need to keep updating, so here I am. I guess it’s important for everyone, including myself, to realize that I’m a human being as well. That means I have needs and wants as well as day to day crap I deal [...]
Writer’s Block
Tags: different person, frustration, instant gratification, lead by example, mistakes, mom, ohio, prayer, prove, prove by example, public school, respect, school, School Life, slip ups, sobriety, stress
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