Posts Tagged ‘shame’
Sunday, May 24th, 2009
A week ago today, I celebrated a year of sobriety for the second time around. Friday, I had a slip-up of old behaviours. Today, I thought about how this year has been different my last year of sobriety. On Saturday, after I really thought hard about what I had done and how many people it [...]
Look Forward with Hope
Tags: AA, change, crying, emotions, feelings, fourth step, guilt, honest, honesty, old behaviors, regret, remorse, rensentment, shame, sobriety, suggestions, tears, trauma report, willing, willingness
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Wednesday, May 20th, 2009
Today I’m so grateful that I don’t EVER have to be that person that I used to be, and I believe that is the greatest miracle God or recovery could have ever given me. I’ve been through a lot, and today I consider myself a survivor.
What It’s Like Now
Tags: addiction, alcohol, apg, assault, christ, crack, crack/cocaine, cutting, dad, delusion, denton, domestic violence, drinking, drug, drugs, dry drunk, ecstasy, ER, freedom, God, guilt, heal, hitch hiking, JDC, learn, marijuana, meth, oblivion, rape, recover, recovery, rehab, rehabilitation, self-harm, self-injury, self-mutilation, shame, sober, sobriety, spiritual experience, story, suicide, survival AA, surviving, talk, white-knuckling, youth aa
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Thursday, April 23rd, 2009
If I sat in a group of women in sobriety and point blank said, “I smoked crack, I sold my body for it, and now I’m living with the consequences,” they’d all probably relate. THAT right there, is the beauty of alcoholics anonymous as well as narcotics anonymous.
Forgiveness pt. II
Tags: AA, aa meeting, addict, addiction, afraid, alcoholic, anger, angry, anorexia, aphorism, bulimia, crack, crack/cocaine, cutting, defense mechanism, drinking, drugging, eating disorders, fear, feelings, forgive, gaining weight, gang, gang banging, gangs, guilt, isolate, isolation, pity pot, problem, prostitute, rape, remorse, resentment, resentments, self-centeredness, self-harm, self-injury, self-pity, selfish, selfishness, shame, sobriety, solution, streets, strength, support, surgery, survivor, think, woman, women
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Saturday, April 4th, 2009
I have a lot of old resentments coming up recently, and I’ve been working my hardest to deal with them along with God. I do, however, know that resentments are the number one offender and they lead only to a life a unhappiness and futility (page 64 of the Big Book).
School Life and Procrastination
Tags: AA, alcoholic, alcoholics, alcoholics anonymous, big book, blogging, coffegroundz, feelings, geek gathering, guilt, Music, Music Reviews, old friends, opportunity, Orchestra, passion, resentments, school, shame, social media, sponsor, TAKS, TAKS tutorials, the secret cut, wallflower, writing
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Sunday, March 29th, 2009
So, I just got back from watching the Houston Symphony perform in an extravagant concert of (dun dun dun) Bach vs. Vivaldi. It was so neat. They played two of Bach’s Brandenburg Concertos, one of which I’ve actually played an arranged version of for Honors middle school orchestra. They also played an oboe concerto and [...]
Friends, Old and New
Tags: Add new tag, bach, Brandenburg, CAEP, change, change everything, concerto, drugs, friends, friendship, friendships, frustration, girl scouts, guilt, houston symphony, life, oboe, old friends, past, remorse, shame, streets, symphonyorchestra, violin, vivaldi
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Thursday, March 19th, 2009
I wrote an essay for English last month, and I really enjoyed writing it. I thought I would share it with my viewers as well as do some tweaking of it. I made a Four, which is the highest grade an essay can get. I think the prompt was “Write about the importance of doing [...]
Music – The Universal Language
Tags: classical, contrabass, double bass, english, essay, guitar, kontrabass, language, love, Music, musician, piano, regret, rehab, shame, string bass, upright bass, viola de gamba
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