Posts Tagged ‘God’
Wednesday, May 20th, 2009
Today I’m so grateful that I don’t EVER have to be that person that I used to be, and I believe that is the greatest miracle God or recovery could have ever given me. I’ve been through a lot, and today I consider myself a survivor.
What It’s Like Now
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Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009
I believe the grief process is something that all of us go to not only when we lose people, but when we lose something. For me, I lost my drug and alcohol abuse – my main escape into oblivion.
Forgiveness
Tags: AA, aa meeting, acceptance, anger, banjo, bargaining, beauty from pain, big book, burden, confuse, cutting, defense mechanism, denial, depression, forgive, forgiveness, forgiving, God, grief process, iosolation, let go, let go and let god, letting go, molestion, rape, resentment, self-harm, self-injury, superchick, Work, wreckage
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Monday, April 20th, 2009
It’s nice to be free and to grow and make my own decisions, which is definitely not something I was able to do a year ago.
A Healthy Balance of School and Work
Tags: AA, act, acts, alcoholics anonymous, blessings, car, college, college now, contrabass, double bass, eleven months, God, interview, job, kontrabass, north texas state university, psat, psats, rice university, sat, sats, school, sobriety, sobriety mileston, string bass, sweepstakes, TAKS, teaching, UIL, university of texas, Work, world music
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Monday, March 30th, 2009
My mom came into town today and we had an amazing talk while walking around the lake by my house. She and I conversed about everything there was to talk about – relationships, boys, and change. I also recently packed up all my old journals I had ever written into a huge steamer trunk and [...]
Change
Tags: AA, anna nalick, aphoirsm, blog, breath (2am), breathe, change, changes, changing, God, god consciousness, journals, lifestyle, lyrics, mistakes, mold, old friends, therapy, you have to give it away to keep it
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Friday, March 20th, 2009
Well, despite my ill thoughts of this blog, I believe I need to focus on the good and not the bad! When I was in recovery about a year or two ago (I’ve been in and out for three to four years now), my old sponsor used to always tell me to make gratitude lists [...]
Gratitude and My Freedom
Tags: AA, bluebonnets, calmness, clean time, controlling thoughts, family, freedom, God, grateful, gratitude, gratitude list, home, house, mountains, negative self-talk, peace, positive self-talk, re-write thoughts, recovery, rush, serenity, silence, struggle, thought process
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Friday, March 20th, 2009
Jeremiah 18
At the Potter’s House
1 This is the word that came to Jeremiah from the LORD : 2 “Go down to the potter’s house, and there I will give you my message.” 3 So I went down to the potter’s house, and I saw him working at the wheel. 4 But the pot he [...]
God, Take Me As I Am
Tags: AA, alcoholic, alcoholics anonymous, brokenness, clay, discontentment, fear, free, God, happy, hurt, jeremiah 18, jeremiah 29:11, joyous, judgment, pain, past, potter, pottery, promises, raising botom, rock bottom, self-pity, stone
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Wednesday, March 18th, 2009
Love and tolerance of others is our code.
– Page 64 of Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book
I’ve tried to run AA/NA meetings on this topic, but it seems as if everytime I try, everyone else takes it as a chance to explain their quirks and pet peeves. That’s not what I want to talk about when I [...]
Tolerance
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Monday, March 16th, 2009
I wrote a poem while I was still in a maximum security holding center about a week ago. This is the first poem I’ve written in about eight months, as well as my first positive poem.
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I’ve hurt so bad in life.
All I knew before was the knife.
I now know better ways to cope,
When before [...]
Blessings and Healing
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