Archive for the ‘Hope’ Category
Sunday, May 24th, 2009
A week ago today, I celebrated a year of sobriety for the second time around. Friday, I had a slip-up of old behaviours. Today, I thought about how this year has been different my last year of sobriety. On Saturday, after I really thought hard about what I had done and how many people it [...]
Look Forward with Hope
Tags: AA, change, crying, emotions, feelings, fourth step, guilt, honest, honesty, old behaviors, regret, remorse, rensentment, shame, sobriety, suggestions, tears, trauma report, willing, willingness
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Thursday, April 23rd, 2009
If I sat in a group of women in sobriety and point blank said, “I smoked crack, I sold my body for it, and now I’m living with the consequences,” they’d all probably relate. THAT right there, is the beauty of alcoholics anonymous as well as narcotics anonymous.
Forgiveness pt. II
Tags: AA, aa meeting, addict, addiction, afraid, alcoholic, anger, angry, anorexia, aphorism, bulimia, crack, crack/cocaine, cutting, defense mechanism, drinking, drugging, eating disorders, fear, feelings, forgive, gaining weight, gang, gang banging, gangs, guilt, isolate, isolation, pity pot, problem, prostitute, rape, remorse, resentment, resentments, self-centeredness, self-harm, self-injury, self-pity, selfish, selfishness, shame, sobriety, solution, streets, strength, support, surgery, survivor, think, woman, women
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Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009
I believe the grief process is something that all of us go to not only when we lose people, but when we lose something. For me, I lost my drug and alcohol abuse – my main escape into oblivion.
Forgiveness
Tags: AA, aa meeting, acceptance, anger, banjo, bargaining, beauty from pain, big book, burden, confuse, cutting, defense mechanism, denial, depression, forgive, forgiveness, forgiving, God, grief process, iosolation, let go, let go and let god, letting go, molestion, rape, resentment, self-harm, self-injury, superchick, Work, wreckage
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Monday, April 20th, 2009
It’s nice to be free and to grow and make my own decisions, which is definitely not something I was able to do a year ago.
A Healthy Balance of School and Work
Tags: AA, act, acts, alcoholics anonymous, blessings, car, college, college now, contrabass, double bass, eleven months, God, interview, job, kontrabass, north texas state university, psat, psats, rice university, sat, sats, school, sobriety, sobriety mileston, string bass, sweepstakes, TAKS, teaching, UIL, university of texas, Work, world music
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Tuesday, March 31st, 2009
I spent a lot of the day reminiscing about all the things he and I have been through. I remember the night he called me around 2 or 3 am, telling me he had just told his mom he was addicted to meth He was crying and I still remember his exact words, “Victoria, I need you.”
Friends, Old and New Pt. II
Tags: AA, addiction, aphorism, camera, change, courage, different, drugs, ESH, Experience, friend, friends, friendship, help, Hope, knowledge, lead the horse to water, meth, meth addictino, Music, new friends, old friends, people, recovery, relapse, relapsed, relationships, risks, sobriety, strength
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Sunday, March 29th, 2009
So, I just got back from watching the Houston Symphony perform in an extravagant concert of (dun dun dun) Bach vs. Vivaldi. It was so neat. They played two of Bach’s Brandenburg Concertos, one of which I’ve actually played an arranged version of for Honors middle school orchestra. They also played an oboe concerto and [...]
Friends, Old and New
Tags: Add new tag, bach, Brandenburg, CAEP, change, change everything, concerto, drugs, friends, friendship, friendships, frustration, girl scouts, guilt, houston symphony, life, oboe, old friends, past, remorse, shame, streets, symphonyorchestra, violin, vivaldi
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Saturday, March 28th, 2009
All in all… I think life is a learning process. Almost a trial and error thing. If something doesn’t work, do it differently next time.
It’s a Learning Process
Tags: americans, anorexia, anxiety, body image, Bristol Palin, culture, cutting, drinking and driving, drugs, eating disorders, english, geometry, hate, Hope, Levi Johnston, media, orhestra, research paper, risky sex, school, self-harm, self-injury, self-loathing, spring break, thesis, today's generation, tuesdays with morrie, writer's block
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Friday, March 20th, 2009
Jeremiah 18
At the Potter’s House
1 This is the word that came to Jeremiah from the LORD : 2 “Go down to the potter’s house, and there I will give you my message.” 3 So I went down to the potter’s house, and I saw him working at the wheel. 4 But the pot he [...]
God, Take Me As I Am
Tags: AA, alcoholic, alcoholics anonymous, brokenness, clay, discontentment, fear, free, God, happy, hurt, jeremiah 18, jeremiah 29:11, joyous, judgment, pain, past, potter, pottery, promises, raising botom, rock bottom, self-pity, stone
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Wednesday, March 18th, 2009
Love and tolerance of others is our code.
– Page 64 of Alcoholics Anonymous Big Book
I’ve tried to run AA/NA meetings on this topic, but it seems as if everytime I try, everyone else takes it as a chance to explain their quirks and pet peeves. That’s not what I want to talk about when I [...]
Tolerance
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Tuesday, March 17th, 2009
About two months ago, my father wrote a post on Being a Dad Through Self-Injury. He came to me today saying that it had a lot of hits from people looking for help with self-harm themselves. Although his post was amazing and really opened my eyes on his perspective, it’s mainly focused on being [...]
Survival of a Self-Injurer
Tags: battle self-harm, cut, cutting, Experience, help on cutting, help on self-harm, help on self-injury, Hope, self-harm, self-injury, self-mutilation, strength, surviving self-injury
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