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Wednesday, July 7th, 2010
Well, I know I said I would post lots of pictures when I came back to Houston, but I ended up leaving my camera on the kitchen table as I walked out the door for the airport. So I wanted to write something and let everyone know how my experience was.
It’s been about a month [...]
Wilderness Trip Update
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Tuesday, May 11th, 2010
My 2 year sobriety birthday is coming up in a week, and lately I’ve been thinking about how much everything has changed. These last two years have been INSANE and I feel like a completely different person. From JDC to rehab to the real world, my sobriety has been a journey. A lot of it [...]
Changing for the Better
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Friday, July 17th, 2009
I’ve never known a musician who regretted being one. Whatever deceptions life may have in store for you, music itself is not going to let you down.
- Virgil Thompson
Elevator Pitch for Delicate Melody
Tags: belonging, bible, brainwash, creating music, editorial, elevator pitch, Experience, Hope, insanity, journalism, memories, Music, music in recovery, Orchestra, recovery, sane, sanity, sober, sobriety, strength, stringss, symphony, virgil thompson
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Sunday, May 24th, 2009
A week ago today, I celebrated a year of sobriety for the second time around. Friday, I had a slip-up of old behaviours. Today, I thought about how this year has been different my last year of sobriety. On Saturday, after I really thought hard about what I had done and how many people it [...]
Look Forward with Hope
Tags: AA, change, crying, emotions, feelings, fourth step, guilt, honest, honesty, old behaviors, regret, remorse, rensentment, shame, sobriety, suggestions, tears, trauma report, willing, willingness
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Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009
I believe the grief process is something that all of us go to not only when we lose people, but when we lose something. For me, I lost my drug and alcohol abuse – my main escape into oblivion.
Forgiveness
Tags: AA, aa meeting, acceptance, anger, banjo, bargaining, beauty from pain, big book, burden, confuse, cutting, defense mechanism, denial, depression, forgive, forgiveness, forgiving, God, grief process, iosolation, let go, let go and let god, letting go, molestion, rape, resentment, self-harm, self-injury, superchick, Work, wreckage
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Monday, April 20th, 2009
It’s nice to be free and to grow and make my own decisions, which is definitely not something I was able to do a year ago.
A Healthy Balance of School and Work
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Thursday, April 16th, 2009
I want to teach music again. When I started high school, I was still in contact with my middle school orchestera director, and I’d have her refer incoming students to me for private lessons. I had about two or three clients I worked with once a week each and it was amazing.
No Time To Write? Pah!
Tags: alcohol, contrabass, distance learning, double bass, drugs, first chair, friends, house arrest, job hunting, kontrabass, middle school, mom, music teacher, music tutor, of mice and men, ohio, Orchestra, orchestra conductor, orchestra director, pre-UIL, private lessons, regionals, regions, relationship, relationships, school, sight reading, sobriety, string bass, TAKS, TAKS testing, UIL, UIL contest
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Tuesday, March 31st, 2009
I spent a lot of the day reminiscing about all the things he and I have been through. I remember the night he called me around 2 or 3 am, telling me he had just told his mom he was addicted to meth He was crying and I still remember his exact words, “Victoria, I need you.”
Friends, Old and New Pt. II
Tags: AA, addiction, aphorism, camera, change, courage, different, drugs, ESH, Experience, friend, friends, friendship, help, Hope, knowledge, lead the horse to water, meth, meth addictino, Music, new friends, old friends, people, recovery, relapse, relapsed, relationships, risks, sobriety, strength
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Monday, March 30th, 2009
My mom came into town today and we had an amazing talk while walking around the lake by my house. She and I conversed about everything there was to talk about – relationships, boys, and change. I also recently packed up all my old journals I had ever written into a huge steamer trunk and [...]
Change
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Sunday, March 29th, 2009
So, I just got back from watching the Houston Symphony perform in an extravagant concert of (dun dun dun) Bach vs. Vivaldi. It was so neat. They played two of Bach’s Brandenburg Concertos, one of which I’ve actually played an arranged version of for Honors middle school orchestra. They also played an oboe concerto and [...]
Friends, Old and New
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