Category: God

I’ve never known a musician who regretted being one. Whatever deceptions life may have in store for you, music itself is not going to let you down.
- Virgil Thompson

A week ago today, I celebrated a year of sobriety for the second time around. Friday, I had a slip-up of old behaviours. Today, I thought about how this year has been different my last year of sobriety. On Saturday, after I really thought hard about what I had done and how many people it [...]

I believe the grief process is something that all of us go to not only when we lose people, but when we lose something. For me, I lost my drug and alcohol abuse – my main escape into oblivion.

It’s nice to be free and to grow and make my own decisions, which is definitely not something I was able to do a year ago.

I want to teach music again. When I started high school, I was still in contact with my middle school orchestera director, and I’d have her refer incoming students to me for private lessons. I had about two or three clients I worked with once a week each and it was amazing.

I spent a lot of the day reminiscing about all the things he and I have been through. I remember the night he called me around 2 or 3 am, telling me he had just told his mom he was addicted to meth He was crying and I still remember his exact words, “Victoria, I need you.”

My mom came into town today and we had an amazing talk while walking around the lake by my house. She and I conversed about everything there was to talk about – relationships, boys, and change. I also recently packed up all my old journals I had ever written into a huge steamer trunk and [...]

So, I just got back from watching the Houston Symphony perform in an extravagant concert of (dun dun dun) Bach vs. Vivaldi. It was so neat. They played two of Bach’s Brandenburg Concertos, one of which I’ve actually played an arranged version of for Honors middle school orchestra. They also played an oboe concerto and [...]

All in all… I think life is a learning process. Almost a trial and error thing. If something doesn’t work, do it differently next time.

Well, despite my ill thoughts of this blog, I believe I need to focus on the good and not the bad! When I was in recovery about a year or two ago (I’ve been in and out for three to four years now), my old sponsor used to always tell me to make gratitude lists [...]