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Sunday, May 24th, 2009
A week ago today, I celebrated a year of sobriety for the second time around. Friday, I had a slip-up of old behaviours. Today, I thought about how this year has been different my last year of sobriety. On Saturday, after I really thought hard about what I had done and how many people it [...]
Look Forward with Hope
Tags: AA, change, crying, emotions, feelings, fourth step, guilt, honest, honesty, old behaviors, regret, remorse, rensentment, shame, sobriety, suggestions, tears, trauma report, willing, willingness
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Wednesday, May 20th, 2009
Today I’m so grateful that I don’t EVER have to be that person that I used to be, and I believe that is the greatest miracle God or recovery could have ever given me. I’ve been through a lot, and today I consider myself a survivor.
What It’s Like Now
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Thursday, April 23rd, 2009
If I sat in a group of women in sobriety and point blank said, “I smoked crack, I sold my body for it, and now I’m living with the consequences,” they’d all probably relate. THAT right there, is the beauty of alcoholics anonymous as well as narcotics anonymous.
Forgiveness pt. II
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Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009
I believe the grief process is something that all of us go to not only when we lose people, but when we lose something. For me, I lost my drug and alcohol abuse – my main escape into oblivion.
Forgiveness
Tags: AA, aa meeting, acceptance, anger, banjo, bargaining, beauty from pain, big book, burden, confuse, cutting, defense mechanism, denial, depression, forgive, forgiveness, forgiving, God, grief process, iosolation, let go, let go and let god, letting go, molestion, rape, resentment, self-harm, self-injury, superchick, Work, wreckage
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Monday, April 20th, 2009
It’s nice to be free and to grow and make my own decisions, which is definitely not something I was able to do a year ago.
A Healthy Balance of School and Work
Tags: AA, act, acts, alcoholics anonymous, blessings, car, college, college now, contrabass, double bass, eleven months, God, interview, job, kontrabass, north texas state university, psat, psats, rice university, sat, sats, school, sobriety, sobriety mileston, string bass, sweepstakes, TAKS, teaching, UIL, university of texas, Work, world music
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Saturday, April 4th, 2009
I have a lot of old resentments coming up recently, and I’ve been working my hardest to deal with them along with God. I do, however, know that resentments are the number one offender and they lead only to a life a unhappiness and futility (page 64 of the Big Book).
School Life and Procrastination
Tags: AA, alcoholic, alcoholics, alcoholics anonymous, big book, blogging, coffegroundz, feelings, geek gathering, guilt, Music, Music Reviews, old friends, opportunity, Orchestra, passion, resentments, school, shame, social media, sponsor, TAKS, TAKS tutorials, the secret cut, wallflower, writing
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Tuesday, March 31st, 2009
I spent a lot of the day reminiscing about all the things he and I have been through. I remember the night he called me around 2 or 3 am, telling me he had just told his mom he was addicted to meth He was crying and I still remember his exact words, “Victoria, I need you.”
Friends, Old and New Pt. II
Tags: AA, addiction, aphorism, camera, change, courage, different, drugs, ESH, Experience, friend, friends, friendship, help, Hope, knowledge, lead the horse to water, meth, meth addictino, Music, new friends, old friends, people, recovery, relapse, relapsed, relationships, risks, sobriety, strength
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Monday, March 30th, 2009
My mom came into town today and we had an amazing talk while walking around the lake by my house. She and I conversed about everything there was to talk about – relationships, boys, and change. I also recently packed up all my old journals I had ever written into a huge steamer trunk and [...]
Change
Tags: AA, anna nalick, aphoirsm, blog, breath (2am), breathe, change, changes, changing, God, god consciousness, journals, lifestyle, lyrics, mistakes, mold, old friends, therapy, you have to give it away to keep it
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Sunday, March 29th, 2009
So, I just got back from watching the Houston Symphony perform in an extravagant concert of (dun dun dun) Bach vs. Vivaldi. It was so neat. They played two of Bach’s Brandenburg Concertos, one of which I’ve actually played an arranged version of for Honors middle school orchestra. They also played an oboe concerto and [...]
Friends, Old and New
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Saturday, March 28th, 2009
All in all… I think life is a learning process. Almost a trial and error thing. If something doesn’t work, do it differently next time.
It’s a Learning Process
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